It’s very touching and powerful film and not because it’s about an autistic boy, not because of all these socially realistic sad scenes in it. It is something else to it. Something I’m still trying to grasp.
This film might never have happened if Lyubov Arkus, one of the authors of the Séance online magazine about cinema, did not get to read the story once written by Anton, where he writes that people are different and they endure. She got so touched/interested with it that she finds the boy and it changes her life, and lives of other people around. She somehow sees herself in this boy and tries to find a place for him in life/world which is really hard, especially with the current state of Russian health institutions.
Anton leaves in his own world, he runs to people he loves, he hugs and he kisses them and he runs away again. He needs someone to be near him all the time, someone to trust, so he does not feel completely alone. There’s also something completely different to how Anton sees and understands the world around him. When he himself holds a camera and looks through the lens up to the sky he shouts: “I fly, I fly!”
The camera becomes the watching, attentive, loving someone, who is needed by Anton so much. The film itself, the filming process, the camera changes the state of things. First being afraid of it, later on Anton starts to go inside of the shot himself. During the filming period (about 4 years) Anton learns how to talk to people, not be afraid of dogs, how to cry , how to wash dishes, and cook, and he just becomes older and goes a bit further out of his shell revealing himself to others. And not everyone can accept him as he is. This film is a learning process not only for Anton, but also for his parents, for the director, and for the viewer.